groupie(s) throwing their underwear on stage
It’s a bunch of depressing bullshit lol
It makes me seem so emotional and weird.
Im not, it’s just i vent on here when shit does happen. That’s all.
I’m chillin like a villian as of now. So yeah.
Just thought i’d say that.
I’m just ready to love someone and have them love me back with the same effort i give them.
Blah.
Single. As of now, i’m sick.
Other than that chilling, content with life.
So yeah, everything’s all good in the hood.
Im done with him. I can’t any longer. It’s time to do some real searching for some inner strength.
Cause i really need it right about now.
I’ve been in this bad attitude for the past couple of days.. I need to release this aggression. Usually, i would talk it out but seeing as though i have no one to talk to, im SOL. So i think a visit to the gym would do me justice. Originally i was gonna do some yoga at home, but that’s too soft. Gym has the machines and stations. Thats what i need. Or a punching bag. Idk.
Just completely broken? Emotionally, you’re strength is just gone.
You aren’t yourself anymore.
That’s how i feel.
Minus two people. Other than that, fuck yall.
Im just gonna go MIA on everyone. They’ll be ared, wasnt worried bout me before.
Me and my family had a talk today and it seems like things were gonna go good from here on out. But, idk things are still suspect.
Couldnt even see Dorian today even though it’s his freaking birthday.
Then he tells me he might have to move to his dads house in PG county..
I live in Randallstown. -_____________________-
Blahh, but thats not definite. Long story. But yeah, after that talk i can say about 10% progression was made. Now all i can do is just wait it out, handle what i have to handle, and pray and hope for the best.
I do a good job at distracting myself so i wont get depressed over issues and stuff like that (Even though, that’s a horrible way to handle problems). But Dorian cant do that like at all. He dwells on issues and wont hope for the best. If things don’t change right then and there and if there isn’t an automatic direct change and good outcome, he gets mad and has the worst attitude and just is so negative. He’s just taking the whole situation so bad and i just feel bad because it’s my family’s fault that all this is happening. And idk how to console him, like i don’t know what to say.
I just want my family to accept him for who he is and stop judging him and stereotyping him as the typical “18 year old black male” because he is FAR from it.
Its all just so frustrating. And i have no one to talk about it to, my friends are assholes. My family is def against. All i have is Dorian and tumblr.
I dont know man. I just want to be happy.
We havent been together that long, we’ve been through so much. From the time when we first became friends and started talking til’ now, so much has happened. And it all just brings us closer and makes my feelings for him so much stronger. I may not be in love with him right now at this moment, but i can honestly say i care for him ALOT. I love him and though he may not be perfect, but he’s a great guy. He just makes me smile. I just hope what we’re dealing with now with my family’s disapproval passes over. I want them to see how happy he makes me, how he brightens up my day. I want him to be able to come over and feel at home and the same with me at his house. I want our families to come together and be able to have a good time. If he’s going to be in my heart, he should be in my family’s heart. Hopefully, this is a temporary obstacle. All i can do, as he said, is pray. Pray that this wont escalate and sooner or later, preferably sooner die down.
My family disapproves of my relationship. My friends aren’t even supportive of it.
My family has no rational reason not to approve though besides the fact that he’s about to turn 18 on Monday and im still 16.
If that was there main reason, sure fine whatever. But thats not the case at all, they’re just assuming shit about him.
I dont know what to do and i cant talk to my friends about it cause they dont support it either. and they DEFINITIVELY have no reason not to support.
I just dont understand. Like at all..
Then my boyfriend is being weird and saying things have to change in regards to my family or he doesnt know how much longer he can deal with this.
But its not my fucking fault my family feels that way. Why am i being faulted?
This is all some bullshit. Complete fucking bullshit.
